Alone..You`re alone..You`ve never been so alone in your whole life..Only the shadows..are your true companions...

This is you..

Eyes closed, out in the rain.

You never thought you'd be doing something like this, you never saw yourself being like this..

I don't know how you'd describe it... Is like one of those people who like looking up at the moon, who spend hours gazing at the waves or the sunset or... I guess you know the kind of people I'm talking about...or.. maybe you don't.

Anyway, you kind of like being like this, fighting the cold, feeling the water seep through your shirt and getting through your skin. And the feel of the ground growing soft beneath your feet..and the smell...And the sound of the rain hitting the leaves.

All the things they talked about in the books you haven't read...yet..

This is you...

Who would have guessed it?

You..

And.. now you feel like you wanna take all the drugs in the world, but all the drugs in the world aren't gonna change the feeling that your whole life's been a dream and it's only now that you're waking up. And those drugs...won`t make you..feel normal..since there is no such thing as normal people..

Maybe that`s why you love a freak..You love that someone and you can't make him happy. It's kind of like you love him, but... you can't love him the way he want`s to be loved.

Some of us just can't live the kind of life that other people want us to live. No matter how hard you try, you just can't do it.

...Anyway i`ll stop writing .. I`ll just put my wings back on..and fly back to heaven....where i belong...I`ll be here when you need me...waiting...Just think about me..and i`ll be here!

...any place

...any hour...



With love...

... your guardian angel:*